one of the days-II

Dunno whats wrong with me today..
I am invigorated...But with most unproductive kind of energy….

Rambling on…

We reach a state when whatever you say doesn’t make a difference. And still the silence seems very inappropriate that time.. what are we supposed to say then??

Why are we supposed to react ‘ideally’ to everything? Who defines this ideal behavior? And why are we supposed to stick to it?

Is pursuit of happiness equivalent to being selfish??

It feels that good times pass way too quickly.. Is it wrong to wish that, those should linger?

Why can’t we fast-forward some part of life, when life seems dull and nothing new is happening…

What is love? What is soul??

Why you keep rambling on when noone is least bothered?

Blank

There are some times, when your head tends to get over-crowded with emotions. But there are few, when it goes ‘Blank’. It generally represents the extreme emotion.

Whenever you are ultra happy, or extremely sad, or utterly confused, or really upset, your mind simply goes blank…. You just keep staring in the space, thinking absolutely nothing… Anything around you doesn’t matter …. The time stops… Its all about you and that one moment...Only one feeling sinks in….You just stand there and one emotion runs you down…

PS. The original concept belongs to someone else.

Lost in contemplation

Its been just one day since my last post, and people are actually asking me “no recent post”??!!

The occult

While reading ToI, came across the article about numerology.. I don’t exactly believe in it. But still I make a point to read it every week. Its may be because I am allured by the concept of ‘knowing the future’ just like everyone else...Or may be I am trying to invalidate something…I don’t know.

Be it astrology, numerology, or palmistry. It’s nothing but a futile effort to fathom the unfathomable, to predict the unpredictable, to relate the unrelated. Its a never ending search for the existence of almighty God or divinely ordained Destiny or unknown primeval force or whatever you want to call it.

We know this all. Still we go to any extent to find answer to the occult occurrences and hypothesize many theories to justify them. But one should realize that it's best when some questions remain unanswered.

Random thoughts

Bed Electronics chocolate internet drive motive lunch table-tennis focus PC coffee exam surprise beach virus youtube ham posters project phone money satisfaction city challenge happiness shopping change….
These represent keywords of what I was thinking in past five minutes..

Idiosynchrasies

Feb - Messaging (on an average 75 msges a day)..
March - Matlab!
April - Coffee, chocolates and chatting on phone..
June - Reading..
July - Browsing...
August - Blogging..

These pretty much define my different phases/eccentricities/idiosyncrasies over the last few months....
Now lets see how long this blogging fever lasts...

what the heck happened to me??!!?

I stayed up till 130 in night...
Did two assignments....without copying!!

Rain!

I have love-hate kinda thing for rain..

I hate it when I am going some place nice and I don’t have a jacket, when I wanna drive fast and the road is all wet and slippery, when my fav jeans refuses to dry off and i hate it when I get a running nose..

Rest of the time I just love the rain..Let it be a cheerful drizzle or an exuberant shower..I relish both..

The foggy evenings, lush green trees with cute little branches stemming out, the flowers glittering with dew, blushing sunsets, cool wind carrying smell of moistened earth, look of washed out buildings and jet-black tar roads, steaming cup of strong(bit bitter) coffee, pakoras(if ur mum is happy).. One cannot help but falling in love with this!

one of the days

College just started..
Its pouring cats and dogs outside…
Everyone is busy…
I have no kaam-dhaam…
Finished reading Afgan…
Re-watched i-Robot(told u I haven’t got much to do)..
And to top it all-A statement "Do you think we all are created for a purpose..I would like to believe so.."
A statement by Isaac Asimov’s figment of imagination(which happens to be a robot(in Spooner's words- just lights and clockwork)), makes you think about your life, raises questions about your motives, makes you doubt yourself and you feel hopeless and dejected more than ever…

In all- a gloomy Sunday.

My Fundae-II

Everything need not have a reason..

I love to do unreasonable things…
Like, writing this post!

Edit_1:
**I love to do unreasonable things(.....sometimes only).

Freedom

I feel like a free bird…
Its like, I was trapped in a loop, going round and round the circle..
Today I broke out of it…
No attachments, no bonds, no responsibilities, no worries….
This sudden change is bit odd, but the nicest kind of ‘odd’..
Feels great to be on my own…
The world around me has changed…in a moment… Its far more appealing, exciting, filled with opportunities and possibilities than what I thought it possibly could be..
The sky wasn’t that blue before…
The moon-light wasn’t so soothing before…
The stars weren’t so friendly before..
I want to celebrate this freedom…Spread my wings and soar higher and higher…

A Toast!

A new name..
for new beginnings....
new challenges....
and new confusions...
cheers!!

Discombobulated!!

Few people are sure about what they want..
Rest are sure about what they don’t want..

I am not sure about anything!

And its not like that I haven’t tried to sort it out…
But every time I do,it results in turmoil in my head…rush of thoughts.. feelings.. and everything n anything that can happen inside a human head…
And I end up where I started!!

The Rain, speed n the signal

Typical rainy Sunday.. It had rained a bit in afternoon.. But around dusk sky had cleared..The sun was about to set…It was one of intensely golden sunsets which kindle the horizon…in other words perfect setting for a drive…

So I grabbed my keys and rushed downstairs….

There was not much traffic on the road(considering pune standards).. I started gaining speed… soon reached the maximum(maximum that my bike could offer).. The wind was hitting my face so hard that my entire face had gone numb.. At that moment I could feel only speed..nothin else.. N then I realized, this is exactly why world is crazy about speed.. At that instant,I believed I could fly.. I could achieve anything.. I felt there is nothing in the world that can possibly stop me..

But then I saw a small red light in front that brought me back in reality and I had to apply breaks……..

GRE - facts and opinions

• One cannot possibly finish studying for GRE in 10 days(unless u have exceptionally good vocab).

• Active/passive vocab remains unchanged after doing 50 wordlists.

• GRE doesn’t test vocab of a person, its just tests patience.

• US universities rely on the GRE scores as it reflects the faith we have US educational system. What I mean to say is, while studying for GRE we have to believe that the education will be worth mugging all those words(which you never gonna use in your entire life).

• All your guesses about what author of the passage is most likely to agree with(typical RC question) will be wrong.

• Don't give GRE after your placement.

• I am not meant and made for GRE.

My fundae-I

I have problem with everything that I “have to” do……

I don’t know whether its universal or its just me..But whenever someone tells me that I have to do something I will try my best to get out of it.. irrespective of whether it makes sense or not..

Like when I am watching tv(day before exam(in pre-scheduled break of few hours)), and during that period if mum happens to tell me to study, I come in my room and end up doing tp for more time than I had originally planned for..

It has nothing to do with being right or wrong. Its all about being instructed to do something. Its as if assuming that I don’t know what’s right and what’s wrong. I am capable of making a decision. I just want people to trust me and I will make my choices. And if I make a mistake, one has every right in the world to blame me.

I don’t mind an advice, just don’t tell me that I HAVE TO do this!!